Here a in class pondering on my thoughts thinking and thinking about what my next thought will be , what will i speak , is there something wrong with me . As I fight my mind with these thoughts I try to get it together I realized and thought of these thought so many tymes, I realized to let it go because its not worth my time. As I try to write these thoughts down so later I will realize I will be okay . It always pops up to bother me to the point I think about it till I feel comfortable . Living with OCD is a living hell and not allot of people realize of what OCD is and how mental illness is the worse thing anyone can bare with because you cant escape it, you can cope with it by doing certain tactics that you think will work but usually at the end of the day it always comes up to haunt you and torture you till the point your sweating and curling up in your bed waiting till the pain to stop , waiting and waiting and waiting, next thing you know its time to go to work . My expearience I usually try to push it away and tell my self I have to go to work know and ill have a work mentally and try to shut it off or shut it down. It sounds crasy but alot of people can not relate, only if you have OCD some people can relate and some people can not relate depending on how bad your OCD is. For people that have this order dont try to hold back on telling people or putting it out there you have this order because the first thing you want to do is to admit to having a problem, it usually is a big relief and look up OCD if you think you have it , its not only you its milions of Americans just like us deal with it on a daily basis but people hide it soo good you would think knothing is wrong with them or they look perfectlly fine but us OCD know how to struggle with this at home alone in there mind when they can try to fight this disease by thinking and thinking until they feel its safe or comfortable to go do whatever they do that they were doing . If not thought of these thoughts a strong amount of guilt and doubt is set in and its so hard to do the everyday things imagine if a 500 pound brick was on you at all tymes, thats how it feels. But whatever happens try to put God first and to realize were human people make mistakes , we think of things that are under our control sometymes, and realize if you have done something or have thought of something , you are forgave under God and everything will be okay . Just breathe in and out and research godly quotes and read on god and what he had done for us as he sacrificed his life for us . Remember we are human and are not perfect . Love God and everything he has done for us and you will be okay . I just made this blog up recently so i’m not the best at these blogs but bare with me . Have a blessed night and may God be with you. Stay positive !

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